Have you ever wondered what it might be like to feel absolutely smitten with motherhood? Me too. The busyness here has led my heart astray again and again. Which is what brought me to writing about what happens when the RUSH is over. Do we give ourselves room for release, dear one? We can. I promise, we can.
"While your light absolutely impacts hers, your child is (wait for it) NOT YOU. She is her own little or big person. She is responsible for her own light. Can you support her brilliance? Absolutely. Is it entirely up to you? Nope." We've had some beautiful homeschool moments these last few weeks, precious friends. We … Continue reading Beauty & Boundaries with Special Kids
Numbed-out by the tumultuous few weeks before we took flight - and absolutely emotionally exhausted by the child I aim to be loved-by (wince) - I chanted the words "Help Me" over and over as I pounded the boardwalk above the most beautiful ocean I've ever seen. One foot. Help. Second foot. Me. Over and over again. And then the words I was needing to hear punched me in the gut...
A few weeks ago, I mentioned to my mentor/sponsor that I felt like the Lord was calling me to take a few days off from really real life. Being a mother is my heart and soul. Yet, to my Maker, I am immeasurably more than a mother. He calls me beautiful on my worst days. Which makes me wonder, what does He call me on my best? (Wink. I think it's just "still" His.)
I prayed and prayed, and often heard what I wanted - but I didn't really listen. Because God is a God of love and people. And when I returned to work part-time in 2017 (just prior to Melanoma) I was acting out of love... but not for all of His people. Truthfully, I was escaping our Wild - who does life with a severe anxiety disorder and struggles with sensory processing and who can rage in the blink of an eye... and I was tired.
The next time someone does something for you - whether it's big or small - I hope you'll smile and say thanks. And let that be it. We don't need to return every favor or apologize for taking up space. We can accept goodness and favor and blessings abundant - and from this space pour out into the world.
Take a gander at what you've plotted for 2019. Now, ask yourself just one question: Does it match with what I value?